It is my belief that the Lord always gives me what I need, exactly when I need it. My current gig is in exchange for room and board which means I that I have to find alternative ways of making money. Sometimes I edit business plans, other times I translate and record answering service scripts for businesses and occasionally Dad gives me a few bucks to do his laundry. Recently, out of nowhere, I was offered the opportunity to work part-time as an Human Resources Administrator.
It seems that every time that I start getting comfortable being a stay at home mom/auntie I get a job offer that changes everything. In 2011, I was caring for Nephew and starting a little routine for him when I got the opportunity to work in Property Management . Worst job ever, yet I kept at it for a 13 months. After that job ended I started caring for Niece and Nephew together for a few months until Nephew began preschool. Later the routine included taking him to school while I cleaned the house, did the laundry, bought groceries, and other housewife-y chores while caring for Niece. As a bonus I also got to pick up my teenage son from school and spend some time with him. I also get to blog, surf the internet, focus on my health plus as a bonus I’ve been gifted an iPhone and a Kindle as gratitude for my efforts. Watching Niece develop from a small, squirmy, whiny newborn into a bright and beautifully expressive 7 month-old has been an amazing experience. We’ve developed a truly special bond. She’s such a fun, happy baby! All awesomely wonderful things.
On the other hand, this isn’t my house and these are not my children.
Son and I have everything we NEED here but I know this is not going to last forever. In the meantime, I’m off the workforce, my skills and talents are not being used, I have little privacy, Brother and Sister-in-law have little privacy. I’ve witnessed more than I’ve ever wanted to witness or be a part of in their their relationship. Their marriage is like a ticking time bomb that could implode at any moment. Their business is also suffering. Customers are unhappy and at least one of them is contemplating a civil suit. Staying home to care for the kids helps them out but what happens to Son and I when/if they separate and/or the business goes bankrupt? I love my family yet all things considered my first priority is to my son. So, I’ve accepted the offer and submitted my application. If all goes well I’ll have a paying job by the end of this week.
I feel so guilty though….going back to work means that the kid’s routine will be totally altered. There is so much strife in their short lives already that I fear taking away what little stability they have will have a lasting negative impact on them. There has to be a balance between what my family needs from me and what I need for myself and my son…